
(Some of the flowers I've been taking time to stop and smell while out on the bike. Phlox??)
Whoa - long time no blog! It’s not that life has been so dull as to be unbloggable. Actually, I’ve been very busy, internally more than anything else.
Living with, fighting and training for triathlon with uncomfortable and annoying sacroiliac joint dysfunction has been something else again. I had NO idea back in March 2008 that an injury that happened in a split second would impact me for over a year. Craziness! Some days/weeks are good, others are mediocre, still others are flat out torture. Anything which requires me to sit for long periods of time or bend/lean over requires second thought and planning. “Do you REALLY need to bend over and pick up that piece of paper from the floor right now?” LOL! That’s seriously the kind of decision I make several times a day!
And if you’re thinking, “Well, gee, you knucklehead. If you only had quit swimming, running, cycling and skiing, you’d be over this by now,” think again. The days I am active, I feel much better than on the days I take off from activity. My doctors and PTs tell me if I quit my sports entirely, I’d be much worse off. Bizarre, but true. Motion is the lotion!
It’s been frustrating to be injured so much and never being able to really to perform up to my potential. I’m still grappling with having to step my competitive goals back a bit and am working to figure out some kind of balance for myself. The question: To what extent will I continue allowing my athletic life to dominate my life in general? Still trying to suss that one out, but the effect on my triathlon season has been notable. I’m doing only a few tris, but throwing in other stuff to keep it all fun and challenging. I still have that competitive drive and desire to excel, but it's also very important to me to shake things up a little, making sure this summer is DIFFERENT than the past 7. I'm going for a kind of unstructured structure, if that makes any sense.
I’ve raced a few standalone running events this spring of different distances. It's been great fun as I haven’t done that in 3 seasons. Then last week saw a couple of FUN firsts. Raced my first cycling time trial - the Cervelo P2C’s racing debut! - and swam my first open water race. Both were rewarding in their own ways and I’m eager to do more.
It doesn’t really look like it from the above, but I’m trying to slow down and smell the roses a little. I'm hoping to rediscover dormant parts of myself that have been ignored since this onset of adult athleticism nearly 10 years ago, and wondering if I just might discover new talents that I’ve been too busy to explore. I’m the first to admit that I haven’t been very successful at the slowing down part yet. I LOVE my sports! The seeds of my goals have been planted though, and I’m just waiting for germination. I wonder what the flowers will look like?